Looking at the mouth of a cave, do I go in or not? Its about a 100 yard crawl before you have to climb up 40 feet in the pitch black, all in order to see the indoor waterfall… Hmm. Tough decision for a guy who is claustrophobic and afraid of heights. But when it came down to it, I sucked it up and went… I went into the dark, into the unknown.
Outside of the cave adventure my wife and I went on recently, we have also had to face some other big decisions. When it comes to financial stability, I don’t take many risks. But when my wife’s job began to cause her to never be home, never spend time with me or our kids, and when she hates it, things aren’t so clear. Sunday morning we found ourselves in church worshiping and while worshiping God decided to talk. Often that is when I hear God the clearest, in the midst of worship. God was talking to both my wife and I about the same thing and we didn’t even know it until later. But what He said left us back in front of that cave, wondering if we had the courage to enter the unknown. God said, “who do you say that I am?” and “I will not give you something better until you trust me fully.” He was telling us to have her quit; to have her quit with nothing else lined up. To have her quit so that we had to trust in God fully… That cave was looking mighty dark.
I don’t like these type of decisions, the one’s you can’t take back. But that first thing that God said, “who do you say that I am?” really struck me. If I believe Him to be God then I have to believe Him to also provide. After some prayer together and apart and after many tears, my wife and I decided for her to quit, and we haven’t looked back. It has been the most freeing experience to trust God fully. It won’t come without some difficulty, but it comes much more pleasantly when you are following God 100%! The cave isn’t so scary when you are inside!
I hope that you if you are struggling with what God is wanting you to do, that you would take that step of faith. You never know where you will end up, and that is a good thing!
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.” – Proverbs 3:5-6